Worship

Dear Baby,

      Today was a rough day for mommy. She felt sick—really sick; throwing up at least 4 times, enduring a bad headache, 2 boxes of tissues worth of congestion, nausea, exhaustion, and all sorts of stomach issues. However, I was determined to feel better, so I decided to take on the day by myself. In my pajamas, I entered our neighbor Walgreens with tears, and in quest for some new medicine. I didn’t want to be seen as a wimp, or a burden to others (which is also called “pride” and “fear of rejection”). And you know what? The only thing it led to was more exhaustion. When your dad called, I wasn’t very nice to him, in fact I was pretty mean. But do you know what he did in response to my hurting? He loved me. He left work early, ran by the grocery store to pick up my favorite ice cream and a movie. His kindness knocked down every wall inside of me and I broke down and melted inside of his arms. He tied back my hair as I threw up and held me as I cried. And as my head throbbed and stomach churned, he grabbed his guitar, brought it into our room and began to worship. Daddy and I sang songs to Jesus together. Not because we felt like it, but because we chose to love Jesus, even in the midst of our pain. We realize that even when our days are bad, God is still Good. We have learned that even when circumstances are hard, or when we have fought all day, or been sick for a really long time, one thing we know for sure—Jesus loves us still…and we love Him still. We can’t promise you our perfection. We can’t promise you all good days. And we can’t promise you a lack of trials. However, what we can promise you, is that God IS and always WILL be good. And we commit to you baby, to seek Him all the days of our lives. Bad days will happen, but God is still near, close and good. We, as McBrayers, choose to worship Jesus because He has saved us, changed us, and been near to us always and forever. He is our friend, and we can’t wait to introduce you to Him. We love you baby.